FaithfulServant2

E - Enthusiastic

L - Lovable

A - Amazing

I - Incredible

N - Natural-Friend

A - Awesome

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Kinda lost right now

Admit defeat, I’ve got a 

Tell tale soul

It gives me away and I can never take it back there is no

Escape from what I have said

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Fan of poetry.

Lookin out the window but I’m not really there

screamin inside, tryina pull out my hair

As if life didn’t knock me to my knee’s

Now I have just one more ignored plea

When life doesn’t hit ya hard enough

You get a bunch more losses, to make it a little tough

What’s one more death at this point

“All my bones are out of joint”

Whats one less friend?

When I am at my end

The silver lining is thinner than string

God is all I have to cling

I need a good cry

But the tears won’t leave my eyes

I need a deep hug

But I am crushed like a bug

Stomped on

Walked over

There is no place to take cover

I can still hear his words hover

It’s all my fault according to Evan

Just how long ‘til I meet you in Heaven?

I’ll be with you

I’ll be with Ilio, Bob, and now Sue

Sue, I’m sorry I didn’t know you

You didn’t deserve to live with what they did to you

I hope you never left your faith

I hope to see you soon in your special place

I hope to cry

I hope to say goodbye

I hope to push through

And Sue? I hope to see you

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Swirling swirling swirling

Wanna be nice but it’s way too hard

dont wanna look at my hands but I wanna see the scars

dont wanna look at the clock, and see how many more hours

just wanna walk in the park and look at all the flowers

let the cold wash in and the wind plow through

Wanna swing, that’s what I wanna do

wanna put away the phone

I just wanna be alone

wanna shut out the cries

i don’t wanna say goodbye

wanna cry but I can’t cause I’m in public

 Wanna stop the swears before I say ‘em

wanna love not hate them

but God it’s so hard just to love like you

Its not easy, but it somethin I really wanna do

I don’t wanna give up, I wanna push through

but I can’t seem to focus

cant think outside the box

I like my box, I like it a lot

Don’t wanna engage

just wanna hide away

dont wanna have to care

dont wanna be there

its awkward, it’s weird

I’m grumpy and not in a good mood

but I don’t wanna have to choose

why can’t I always love

Just when things seem to be normal

Everything flips

my sanity slips

tryina escape this life I’m in 

but I always circle back to face another wall

i’m trapped with no escape

try to find a new place

but it’s like a maze

i get directed to the start again

and then….

I lose it all

hold on, let go

breakdown, buildup

positive future awaits

hold up…restart to a new fate

hold on, let go

breakdown, build up

positive future awaits

hold. Up…restart

hold on, let go.

breakdown, build up

positive? Future awaits

hold on, give up

breakdown and cry

Spill it all with a quick goodbye

repeat. No…was it restart?

hold on just a little, let go by a lot

breakdown again because I’m brittle

cry because it hurts

build up with rotten wood

redo

hold on..

wait.

no.

hold up?

can’t go back

so wash rinse and repeat?

okay. then.

something oh

hold on, but not for long

let go and throw

a fit

breakdown (again) can’t stop the frown as the line presses thin

fall

rotten wood won’t hold

broken

a heart

or maybe 11

resit the urge to wish for Heaven

brush off

the dust

get a tetanus shot

for the rust

stand tall

don’t fall

again

steady yourself

rebuilt, much taller

remade, much stronger

support built on

but build around

some sinking sand

slowly slowly slipping down

lose focus on the crown

fall.

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Fall

Hold on, let go

breakdown, build up

break hearts, ruin friendships

repeat, repeat. Again.

do it until the action is smooth

do it until you have nothing left to lose

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Hold on, let go. Breakdown, break hearts. Ruin friendships. Regret.

now the process is all reset!

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